Its 0k i havent forgotten any of you i will be coming into see you again soon but i am so tired, this insomnia is gonna kill me i will end up with a mental breakdown or some thing if i dont get some sleep soon. 

 I lie there and things go round my head one pushing out another, last night i watched the clock go round and round and my thoughts made no sense atall.

I could get up, and do what, i didnt want anymore to drink, i wouldnt be able to read a book.  And in a small place like mine i would have disturbed my guy, so i just lay there thinking well at least my body is resting and if i close my eyes they too will be rested. 

 I have done all the lavender and stuff and yes a walk in the evening might be nice but there is nothing but houses close by, i would need to get in the car to get to the fields and i wouldnt feel safe at night walking around any where.  So who as some new ideas for a restful nights sleep?.