avenscent Blog

Its a bit like when i get old i will wear purple and a red hat, anything goes, but better to carry on careing or you might lose your marbles, brain function for those who dont know what that means.

Never the less the above made me smile.  We can  stop worrying about how we appear  to others when we are older but only to a point or we make ourselves a bit of a freak where when we are young we can get away with anything.

I find i have to take more care now with clothes  because some are too young for me and some are frumpy and i want neaither, i still want to look nice and fashionable without being wey out. 

 I want to try to keep up with modern tecnology too as much as possible and not get left behind. It is clear that the computor is the future and resist some may but they will get left behind and have to rely on others, i am glad i dont have others to rely on and i get on with moving on and teaching myself its a good feeling it is infact an exciting new world if testing at times.

Its 0k i havent forgotten any of you i will be coming into see you again soon but i am so tired, this insomnia is gonna kill me i will end up with a mental breakdown or some thing if i dont get some sleep soon. 

 I lie there and things go round my head one pushing out another, last night i watched the clock go round and round and my thoughts made no sense atall.

I could get up, and do what, i didnt want anymore to drink, i wouldnt be able to read a book.  And in a small place like mine i would have disturbed my guy, so i just lay there thinking well at least my body is resting and if i close my eyes they too will be rested. 

 I have done all the lavender and stuff and yes a walk in the evening might be nice but there is nothing but houses close by, i would need to get in the car to get to the fields and i wouldnt feel safe at night walking around any where.  So who as some new ideas for a restful nights sleep?.

So often we are offended by what some one says each and every one of us. But is it just a bad choice of words. Had they chosen there words with care maybe we would not have been offended.

  Maybe this is where education comes in, where we can know  how to say some thing without causeing offence, where we know how to handle people.

  0r do even the well educated make those mistakes some times i expect they do.  Then of course there are those who dont care if they do offend us educated or otherwise. 

   Are most of the disagrements people have with each other caused through lack of tacked or because they care nothing for others feelings.

I have some regular blogger friends who like myself keep an active blog which means making the effort most every day to write some thing.  These people are my real friends we visit each other quite often and they know who they are.

Then there are others who push private message after message we reply to but they never bother or rarely ever bother to leave a comment on our blog.

Then there are new comers who write an interesting post or no post atall who want us to be there friend. We are dissapointed to find they hardly ever write anything for us to read and seem to contribute nothing dispite us giving them a chance and being there friend.

I like meeting new people and i love it if i find a genuine new blogger with enthusiasm but so many are not and i tend to think maybe i would be better just sticking to those i know are my friends, keen to   blog and take it quite seriously just as i do. 

 And drop all the rest, would they even notice except for  one notch being removed from the bedpost, so to speak.  What do you think?.

Where is this little girl?  As a mother i can feel for any one who as lost a child under any cicumstances therefore if there is anything i can do to help find her i will. 

 Accussations have been made towards the MCanns at times but they have suffered enough and have prooved they love Madeleine, they have never given up there search for her.

 Who knows where she is, some one must know, i hope whoever you are you feel guilty enough to come forward if and when you see this poster which every one will  eventually see some where.   

If you care about our planet and our future please sign up to the, The Princes Rainforests project.  There are very few rainforests left in the world. 

The rainforests purify the air we breath for thousands of miles and there are undiscovered medicines in the forests. Due to the removal of so many trees thousands of animals have vanished forever from our planet.  Lets try to stop anymore damage before its too late.

http://rainforestsos.org/

I did mention that i have diverticulitus and was in hospital a while back when an abbcess set up in my intestine i put up with the pain until i collapsed and my guy had to get an ambulance to take me to hospital.

Last night i started packing a bag wondering if i would get through the night without having to go to hospital. I had a viscious pain in my side i had not had much to eat in two days  and no sleep because i couldnt get comfortable in bed for the pain.

We went to bed on the allert my guy said to me wake me up if it gets worse and we will get you to hospital.   I made myself as comfortable as i could with my soft cushions and sort of dog slept all night worrying and wondering what it was this time and wether i should go to hospital or wait.  I was afraid if i fell asleep and turned over i would cause myself one hell of a lot of pain.

Today i am a little better i still have the odd twinge but i dont feel too bad hope i am on the mend again, i have to live with this problem for the rest of my life. Too much chocalate, replacing bars of chocalate with chocalate spread on everything wasnt such a good idea afterall.lol.

Yesterday my statistics on here were 21 thousand odd now they are only 19 thousand odd.  Some one is messing around. 

Yesterday i replied to a comment made by pompey and i got a smiley face spring up, shame who ever you are you cant find some thing better to do.

Was late getting up, very late for me i am not a lie in bed sort as a rule but this morning it was 10.0clock when i finally dragged myself out of bed tried to do some thing with my tangled up hair after a bit of a rough night. 

I unravled the sheet that was twisted up like a piece of rope from round me that i had dragged into the bathroom.

 Looked into the mirror and after the hair there was the face bloated after too many glasses of wine, only one i said,didnt i. 

0h my head, that will teach me, my guts are on fire again, shit never again,havent i heard that some where before.

Walk the dog in the field, i felt as much like doing that as flying through the air but i did.  Wind was blowing me of my feet, we were blown down the field and struggled back up the field the wind against us.

 Then there was a sudden gush of  heavy rain.  Good job nobody could here me my language wasnt very pretty. I was soaked i must have looked like a drowned rat, i am still shivering now.  But lets face it it is still lovely and mild for this time of year.

She is much older than the photo here, now, but i love her, she is sexy more now than ever,i love her voice but most of all i love how she gives her all to what she does. 

 Dame Shirley Bassey, i watched a vidio of her a fairly recent one and dispite being probably in her early seventys she is stunning.  Her shows are like one big party that takes me away from the world just for a short time into a wonderful exciting world. I have loved her for years and she never lets me down.